My Kind of Submission and The Awkward Eye

My relationship with my fiancee, at times, seems like an odd occurrence in our community. We have a rather egalitarian relationship 90% of the time. We tend to share house chores, split the responsibility for the dogs (henceforth known as Furry and Baldy), and split the bills fairly.

Yet, I do have a submissive nature. I love when he has control. My "happy place" is kneeling at his feet in front of his chair with my head in his lap.It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. I actually use this as my "subspace" during scenes. When I need to stay focused during a scene, I focus on the feeling of kneeling there.

Funny enough, the fiancee has his own masochistic streak. He is known in our community as a rather heavy masochist. He has done things that, at this point in my life, are VERY hard limits for me. This sometimes leads to getting the awkward eye from folks we hang around with. I've been asked many times what the dynamic is in our relationship. Everyone who has asked has always been very polite and has only asked to express curiosity and reconcile what they know about him and what they see in our relationship.

I have no problem discussing our dynamic to anyone, and neither does he. We are both very open like that. But what I love most, is that even if we chose not to answer, our community would still accept us. No matter what the dynamic, or how it may change, we have a place where we will be loved.

The FIRST POST

The ever-frightening first post.

So, I figured I would give some background on myself and some things I intend on writing about in the future.

About me:

(ugh, this feels like I'm filling out a profile on a dating site)

I'm 25 years old, I live in Las Vegas, and I'm a kinky motherfucker. Despite that last proclamation, I still know many people far kinkier than me. I'm an unapologetic feminist, sci fi enthusiast, and fiancee to the most awesome man in the world.

I still haven't quite figured out what I want to do with this blog just yet. I know I want to chronicle my experiences as I traverse the BDSM scene and discover more about myself. I'm sure I will end up talking feminism, and I so often do in my life. And due to the almost-impending wedding, I'm sure you will be subjected to my thoughts about planning my wedding and what marriage means to me.

So, ladies and gents, tops and bottoms, sadists and masochists, masters, mistresses, subbies slaves and everyone else in the great kinky (and not so kinky) continuum, here I go.